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millenia
2nd year of tba prispevki : 1172
točke : 267
kraj bivanja : pinepple tree under the sea
starost lika : //
tvoja starost : 32
| Naslov sporočila: old lighthouse [zoey & nyah] Pon Nov 18, 2013 6:40 pm | | |
this post is for nyah i've got no idea how many words is in this post, i'm listening to nothing atm and ok i do suck at beginnings i know, i hope it's okay tho. ily
the lighthouse nearby was rarely visited at this time of the day. or well, you could say that it was rarely visited at any time of the day. it was a very early morning and zoey couldn’t sleep. the nightmares she’s been having were getting more and more intense every single time. same dream. more real, more dangerous. she’s woken up shaken up and hardly breathing this day. so, instead of sitting on her bed, and thinking about the cause of the monsters she’s saw every night now, she’s decided that she’ll go for a run, and stop by the place that was... well, almost her own. she liked to spend some time in silence, not at the sight of others from time to time. she didn’t look at the clock as she left, but it probably didn’t hit six yet, which is why she doubted she’ll see anyone here - oh, how wrong she was - but she could’ve sworn she heard someone walking behind her this entire time. telling herself it was only a making up in her mind, she sat on a small rock, right next to the old building, and looked up to the horizon, where the sun was getting up right now. beautiful sight, indeed. but not a perfect one, she realized that when she figured that the steps she’s heard few moments ago weren’t just her imagination; it was that one person she wanted to see the last at this time. a nightmare herself. the sunrise soon changed to the thunderstorm in her mind. she wanted to stand up, but the sudden overflow of tiredness didn’t let her. so she just looked up her way, as she’d want to greet her - not looking in her eyes - and then back down to the rocks. she still felt uncomfortable around nyah, and she just prayed right now, prayed that she’ll leave her the hell alone. she really didn’t need another fight at the moment, nor she was searching for one. |
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prispevki : 180
točke : 148
kraj bivanja : los angeles, us.
starost lika : 21.
tvoja starost : 30
| Naslov sporočila: Re: old lighthouse [zoey & nyah] Pon Nov 18, 2013 7:59 pm | | |
she was bored. she had no idea how she ended up on that party, but she sure as hell knew that the party was over when the guy that was keeping her company suddenly feel asleep. she was annoyed by him; she was annoyed by everything at that moment so she took her jacket and put it on, fixed her hair and walked out. where the hell was she anyway? last night she just ended going to the party at the sorority’s house and then she met a couple of interesting guys there so she joined them. they ended up… somewhere at the beach, apparently. that was interesting. she took a lighter from the table, lighted her cigarette and walked away. she was going home, but then she saw a lighthouse and changed her mind. she wasn’t really tired anyway – she wasn’t sure what was in that pill she took, but it sure kept her awake. but also very annoyed with the whole world. and then her eyes found a familiar figure. it was the princess; it was jem’s precious zoey and she honestly couldn’t help herself. she walked right up to her. ”zoey.” her voice was a bit cold because she didn’t fail to notice that the girl wanted her gone. ”you’re not even going to say hi? I thought you were supposed to be the nicest person on the world.” she used to love zoey. but then the shit went down between them and now… here they were. ”at least that’s what everyone seems to think. isn’t it a bit late, though?” she said and then slowly smiled and exhaled the smoke right at her face. ”oh wait, you probably just got up. so it is early for you.” she was somehow angry with her, but her voice was always normal - or a bit colder, fine - when she was talking to her. ”wow, what the hell are you doing up?” she couldn’t help herself. she saw an enemy in brunette. |
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millenia
2nd year of tba prispevki : 1172
točke : 267
kraj bivanja : pinepple tree under the sea
starost lika : //
tvoja starost : 32
| Naslov sporočila: Re: old lighthouse [zoey & nyah] Pon Nov 18, 2013 9:30 pm | | |
this post is for nyah i've got no idea how many words is in this post, i'm listening to nothing atm and
here she was, approaching her for whatever reason. it always seemed to zoey that nyah enjoyed these conversations, that were, if she was completely honest, making her tired more and more as they dragged on. that’s why she didn’t want to approach first, that’s why she didn’t want to say anything to her first. not because she wouldn’t want to respect her, but because she was simply not the one seeking for fights everywhere she went. she looked up to her, and shrugged at her now already stable insult “i’m sorry. hello nyah.” she stated with as less words as possible. she might’ve been the nicest person on the world. most of the people didn’t deny that fact, zoey was always a sunshine around everyone. she was like that even around nyah. before jem and her started dating. then everything just... fell apart. all of their friendship, that even before wasn’t as stable as, let’s say a friendship with thea and zoey. even though that was a terrible comparison; zoey and thea were best friends, and nyah was just a person she was with in a group of a few more ladies that were going out together to have... fun, well. that’s how she met jem. that’s when she jumped into her hug the next day thanking her so much for meeting them up. ever since that day, they were dating. and nyah drifted apart from jem, and from her, as well. she felt extremely terrible for that, indeed and that’s why she probably wasn’t defending herself at the moment, at all. she just let her say whatever she wanted, accepted it and throw a word back here and then. that’s how their relationship was right now. “you guessed right, it’s early for me.” she murmured, nodding and still looking at the direction of the sun instead of her “you should go home and try to rest, nyah.” it was a simple, friendly statement. she’s tried to smile, but she couldn’t, her eyes still trying to hide from hers. |
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prispevki : 180
točke : 148
kraj bivanja : los angeles, us.
starost lika : 21.
tvoja starost : 30
| Naslov sporočila: Re: old lighthouse [zoey & nyah] Tor Nov 19, 2013 9:47 am | | |
she somehow doubted that zoey was really sorry – it was just a thing to say as soon as it became clear that nyah wasn’t going anywhere, even though she could see it on her face: zoey was strongly hoping that nyah will just walk away and leave her alone, but she couldn’t do that. of course not; she was bored and annoyed and zoey was the last person she wanted to see. she never understood her and she never liked her. okay fine, there was a time when she honestly thought they could be friends, but then she… she stole jem, for heaven sake. and then he ended the thing between them for a short while and that was something she could never really get over. zoey ignored her question and offered her a friendly advice instead – that instantly send her in even unhappier mood. “you think?” she said with half of a smile on her face and then she shook her head no. “well I appreciate it, but I don’t think I can. I have no idea what was in that pill, but it sure as hell is keeping me awake,” she admitted without any feelings in her voice. zoey was a good girl; she knew that the brunette wouldn’t approve of everything nyah did without even thinking twice about it. “so, zoey, what have you been up to?” she asked, her eyes piercing the other girl and then she tilted her head on the right. “is it just me or are you desperately avoiding looking at me? that is awfully rude, you know,” she exhaled more smoke with a smirk on her face. god, she was so annoyed by her. |
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millenia
2nd year of tba prispevki : 1172
točke : 267
kraj bivanja : pinepple tree under the sea
starost lika : //
tvoja starost : 32
| Naslov sporočila: Re: old lighthouse [zoey & nyah] Tor Nov 19, 2013 6:39 pm | | |
this post is for nyah i've got no idea how many words is in this post, i'm listening to nothing atm and
now it really hit her, that she was there just for her own fun. she’s tried to avoid her ever since they both came up here on withmore. she was, perhaps a little grateful that she was one year younger than her, though. even if nyah was the one acting like a spoiled little girl at the moment, who didn’t want to let go until she got what she wanted. oh, how much she wished she could just throw everything she thought at the moment in her face. but she couldn’t; a sign of a respect she doubted that nyah even saw, so caught up in hating her. “you took a pill you don’t know what it was?” that was no surprise, but she had to ask to not be accused of not wanting to talk to her, as well “you should take care of yourself better nyah, what if something happened to you?” she asked, not because she was actually trying to wake up her guilt, but because she simply, somewhere deep down cared about the brunette girl in front of her. only now she realized that they were so different, they really were. “you know, sitting up here, looking at the sunrise, possibly fall asleep here.” she shrugged at her question “you? are you planning to stay up all day, too? it’s not good for you to skip beauty sleep.” her voice was neutral, typically for when she talked to her. she should lower her words though, to prevent her from being able to shoot bullets from every single direction. “oh nyah, i didn’t mean to be rude i just...” she looked up to her face, beautifully masked with all perfect makeup for her skin. it was terribly hard to look into her eyes, though “i’m sorry.” she finished her statement, and forced herself not to look down to the rocks again. geeez, this was awful. |
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prispevki : 180
točke : 148
kraj bivanja : los angeles, us.
starost lika : 21.
tvoja starost : 30
| Naslov sporočila: Re: old lighthouse [zoey & nyah] Tor Nov 19, 2013 6:58 pm | | |
there was a wide smile on her face as zoey repeated her words. yeah, she had the idea now. “well, someone offered it to me and of course, why not?” her words sounded amused – because she actually was amused by zoey and the look she was giving to her at that moment. “I mean, I like to try new things. maybe you should too. it is fun. I can’t really imagine what fun it is to be… like that.” like her. she didn’t get her, no, even though there was a time she thought that zoey was absolutely lovely and amazing and all that shit. well, she was wrong. she giggled at her next words, clearly enjoying herself and this whole conversation. “if something happened to me? jem would take care of me, of course,” she smiled. they both knew that was true. besides, nyah couldn’t help herself – she didn’t like people lecturing her and the response she gave to her seemed appropriate. “oh, talking about him… he mentioned seeing you the other day,” she said and inhaled smoke, pausing her words for few seconds. “he didn’t say a lot about you, though. it was nothing personal; he was just too busy to talk.” she offered her one of the prettiest smiles she was able to form at any given moment. yeah, she knew her way around people. “beauty sleep? thank you, but I will be just okay even without that,” she smiled and then carefully observed the other girl. “oh wow,” she said and sat down next to her, “this is really hard for you, isn’t it? you didn’t mean to be rude, but… but what? you have a problem with my face?” she raised her eyebrows a little and exhaled the smoke. “see, I don’t get you, zoey.” she didn’t want to get her either.
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millenia
2nd year of tba prispevki : 1172
točke : 267
kraj bivanja : pinepple tree under the sea
starost lika : //
tvoja starost : 32
| Naslov sporočila: Re: old lighthouse [zoey & nyah] Sre Nov 20, 2013 2:25 pm | | |
this post is for nyah i've got no idea how many words is in this post, i'm listening to nothing atm and
“i don’t know. perhaps we’re just different.” she murmured her way, with her eyes observing the wave that just crashed into the rocks below them. “we are different. i like being like that” this time it wasn't only just perhaps. they were different. the other part of the statement sounded like a rant, but it wasn’t really. she liked trying new things, too. she liked going to party, sometimes get drunk and sing like crazy, but she never went to the level where she knew her life could be endangered. that was the only difference between them; it wasn’t that big, but it was still big enough to create a gap between them and make nyah find another way to throw things at her. meaningless, rude things. she just didn’t completely understand why she was so mean to her all of the sudden. at her next words, a short, soft smile appeared on her face. of course, jem. she had no clue how much he cared about her “i don’t doubt that, he’s a sweet guy,” this time she truthfully meant her words, and she could smile at them “i’m glad you have someone who you can rely on.” but at the same time, she didn’t want her to make him worry too much; would it be too much if she told her that? probably.
“oh, did he?” her eyebrows raised, her brown eyes showed some genuine surprise. but she quickly realized that, before well, they got together, they were close. next words made her giggle a little, now that was the typical jem everybody was warning her about when they got together. you’ll get hurt, he’s going to cheat on you. but she never did get hurt and that never happened. “that’s alright.” he didn’t need to talk about her. she’d rather see he didn’t even mention her, at all. she wanted him to be happy. she wanted him to move on. she wanted all the best for him, and besides all of that, her relationship with dylan was the only thing she was carrying in her heart right now. she could feel that responsibility of telling him all of it, she concluded that she’ll tell him when they meet next time. and she felt terrible for getting everything so complicated. the way she sat beside her, somehow made her feel uncomfortable, “no, nyah.” she shook her head at her answer, looking away from her once again “you’re gorgeous. i just...” she just felt so fucking guilty. seriously. she doubted she even wanted to get her “just forget about it.” a soft, almost invisible nod. it would be way easier if she could just forget. |
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prispevki : 180
točke : 148
kraj bivanja : los angeles, us.
starost lika : 21.
tvoja starost : 30
| Naslov sporočila: Re: old lighthouse [zoey & nyah] Pet Nov 22, 2013 8:51 pm | | |
nyah was carefully observing zoey. perhaps she had a long, hard night behind her and she should’ve been tired, but she wasn’t. she was far from that; she was just annoyed by precious princess zoey. somewhere deep inside she did realize that she was being stupid and childish and all that, but she couldn’t help herself. zoey was someone she considered her enemy. someone who took her jem away for a while and she was more than afraid of history repeating itself, especially after jem’s confession the other day. if she took him away again… it would kill her. and she knew there would be nothing she could possibly do about it. “there was a time that I actually liked all that thing you have going on… but I am over that now,” she sighed and inhaled smoke from her cigarette and then giggled as zoey spoke again. “sweet guy?” jem was a sweet guy? that was actually amusing. “he is much more than that and honestly, I wouldn’t describe him as sweet. but then again, you don’t know him the way I do,” she shrugged. it was a bit harsh, but it was also true. jem was a devil sometimes and nyah knew that better than anyone else. “oh yeah,” she nodded. “he is so naive when it comes to you,” she shook her head in disagreement and looked at her. “everyone thinks you are oh-so-nice. you have a great thing going on there, I’ll give you that much. precious princess zoey,” her voice was filled with a heavy feeling; anger or maybe disappointment or something completely else. she didn’t know. she didn’t care. “do you remember the times when we actually used to hang out together?” she laughed now; it was a funny thought. “and now… now you won’t even look at me or talk normally to me. just forget about what? isn’t it hard, living like that? always biting your tongue and worrying what people might think?” |
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millenia
2nd year of tba prispevki : 1172
točke : 267
kraj bivanja : pinepple tree under the sea
starost lika : //
tvoja starost : 32
| Naslov sporočila: Re: old lighthouse [zoey & nyah] Sob Nov 23, 2013 4:16 pm | | |
this post is for nyah i've got no idea how many words is in this post, i'm listening to nothing atm and
she could barely understand her, really. if she didn’t like it that much, why was she always insisting at their conversations? why she couldn’t just go and spend her time better than when she was in her company. she’s wanted to throw all of these at her, and it was hard to hold it back and keep the distance between them, just so that she could express that little of care she had for nyah. she’s never forgotten her. she never stopped being grateful to her. jem would never knew of her existence if she didn’t point her out. they both knew that much. “everyone is entitled to their own opinions.” she spoke on her words that made her obviously know she doesn’t like her quite that much anymore. which was perfectly okay, zoey didn’t like a few people as well. but instead of crashing into them, she rather left them alone - perhaps, her and nyah were even more different than she thought that time. “that’s true, and that’s why you know some things, and there’s some that i know. it’s normal, i suppose.” shrugging, she looked her way again, and give her a soft, but short smile, just so she could see she really meant it.
“is he? i’m sorry.” she murmured, and moved her sight back at the sun that was now up the sky; it was unbelievable, how fast the sun and the moon usually went up and down, she thought to herself, totally forgetting about nyah for a moment and her words got past her, she was just able to catch the last part of it “i’m not a princess, nyah.” how could she be a princess in a world where every prince was a fantasy? “nor i ever wanted to be one. i don’t understand why do you keep on calling me like that.” it was a true, question - it always made her confused that she called her princess - and she really wanted to know the answer. even though she expected more harsh words coming from nyah’s mouth. she was like that, she guessed. “yes, i do.” she nodded at her question. of course she did, how could she forget that? “and then you distanced yourself from me. so.. i don’t know how to act around you, nyah. i have no absolute clue, at all.” she usually didn’t watch her tongue this much when it came to defending herself. but this time, she bit herself in it and didn’t say it out loud. |
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prispevki : 180
točke : 148
kraj bivanja : los angeles, us.
starost lika : 21.
tvoja starost : 30
| Naslov sporočila: Re: old lighthouse [zoey & nyah] Sob Nov 23, 2013 8:51 pm | | |
she almost giggled. almost. “sure they are! everyone is allowed to do whatever the hell they want to.” she rolled her eyes, feeling even more annoyed by the brunette. god, she hated her. she did; if she would take her time and carefully observe her feelings she would probably be able to conclude that the hatred was due to the old resentment. she stole jem. she took him away from her! that was bad. that was not something nyah could easily forgive and she wasn’t going to. she ignored most of the things zoey said and then looked at her with a surprised look on her face. “of course you are a goddamn princess, zoey,” her voice was harsh; maybe even harsher than she intended it to be. “you have it all! you always had it all. you are frigging perfect, zoey. so yeah, I am afraid I will insist on calling you that,” she bit her lip to quiet herself. she didn’t actually mean to say that; to admit that stupid little thing out loud and for a second she hated herself for that, but then she was able to pull herself together. fine, so she slipped. big deal. “you don’t know how to act around me?” she repeated, sounding almost surprised and also quite amused. wow, that was a huge problem, right? she distracted herself and stubbed the cigarettes out on her own skin. it hurt a little, yes, but she remained calm and the expression on her face was almost amused. she threw the remains of the cigarette away, ignored the burning pain and looked at zoey. “of course I distanced myself from you,” she said. you took away one person I actually loved. “it turned out that you just weren’t who I thought you were,” she said instead; another lie that won’t make a difference anyway. |
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millenia
2nd year of tba prispevki : 1172
točke : 267
kraj bivanja : pinepple tree under the sea
starost lika : //
tvoja starost : 32
| Naslov sporočila: Re: old lighthouse [zoey & nyah] Ned Nov 24, 2013 1:57 pm | | |
this post is for nyah i've got no idea how many words is in this post, i'm listening to nothing atm and
“it’s good to know that we agree at least on one thing, for now.” she sighed at her. this conversation was starting to make her more and more tired. she could fall asleep by now, but she knew that, well, it wouldn’t bring anything else but more mocking from the cute lady beside her. well, at least she didn’t pick on looking at her straight at the eyes anymore, right? she was quite grateful for that; it was more than obvious that she tried to avoid eye contact, and it was clear how much power nyah had over her. it was quite surprising that, well, only nyah didn’t seem to get and understand that. or was that another of her tricks she was about to turn against her in future? she really did not know how long more she’ll be able to pull herself back every time she wanted to fight back, defend her own self. “i am not, though,” she murmured and while doing that, she noticed a surprised expression on her. that was something new, even for zoey. “i’m nothing near perfect, nyah. i make mistakes in life, i cry like a baby sometimes, i make people pissed off and i don’t even know why. how am i perfect? i don’t have everything. i cannot cut the moon down to the earth to be mine; not like i want to do it, but it’s an example.” that was probably a first time she said something back to her that was, well, kind of a direct defense of herself. “but of course call me princess if it’ll make you feel better.” she shrugged again, a little confused at what just happened.
“yes, i kind of don’t.” how was she supposed to act around a person she respected but they kept on mocking her every freaking time they met on the streets? she could, no, she would ignore her, if she meant nothing to her, but nyah.. nyah was once her friend. and she felt terrible for being the main factor of jem breaking contacts with her. so she couldn’t just ignore her. but she couldn’t just let her throw everything she wanted at her either, not anymore. “i’m sorry i’ve not met your expectations nyah.” this one sounded like she was actually hurt by her words. she stood up, getting ready to leave “and that’s exactly why what you’ve said about me being perfect is not true. take us as an example. i’ll take my leave now, i’m tired and i don’t feel like listening to you mocking me all over a place any more. take care going downstairs, please.” she started walking down, but stopped at the middle of the stairs just to look at her one more time and give her a sour smile. she’s really hoped they could go back to their hang out friends terms. but she hoped for a lot of things. and this one hope certain was impossible to come true.
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